Here we go again…

Trigger warning…

I’m pregnant again and I have an insane amount of anxiety. I am anxious about the pregnancy and the prospect of another child. However, I won’t even let my mind wander to the idea of another baby because I am pessimistic. So, my anxiety has manifested in calculating the probability of a miscarriage daily, checking my pants for blood, and agonizing over any twinge or lack of morning sickness.

I thought I was ready to do this all over again, but I can’t catch my breath I am so anxious.