Take a stand?

I haven’t forgotten. As we approach October 15, pregnancy and infant loss awareness day, I find myself thinking more frequently about my babies. I think about what it would be like if I had never experienced a loss. What does that innoncence feel like? I often wonder that when I see early pregnancy announcements. When I announced my pregnancy at 35 weeks on social media, I wonder if people thought, I too, were of the innocent mindset… 

I contemplate writing a social media post acknowledging my losses prior to my live birth. My motive would be to make those with similar experiences feel less alone. However, with family attached to my social media pages (mostly my husbands), I feel uncomfortable taking such a personal stand. Funny right? I can post almost daily pictures of my daughter and family and yet when it comes to the journey of getting there, it’s oh so taboo. 

So I’m torn- do I take a stand to publically recognize my babies who didn’t make it? Or do I go about my business with the notion that people probably incorrectly preceive me as ‘innoncent?’ 

Should beĀ 

I should have a one year old. 

You were due October 3, 2015…

Just because I have a rainbow doesn’t erase the pain, the loss of innocence, the memory…